I love diversity. I love different languages and cultures that meet and merge into something new… more colorful, complete.
I recently had an AWESOME opportunity of experiencing such a thing on a daily basis for a whole year, and during the whole experience I knew that: “This was only the beginning…”
It is an interesting feeling when you realize for the first time that something was actually missing… like a man who never saw, a blind from birth man. He’ll probably never know for sure what is missing, but he feels it, hears it. that’s the way he understands the world from his current condition, he can only feel it and hear it. and something must be wrong when he hears how people describe things like colors, perspective, visual arts… how they give so little description yet, for them who see, is pretty obvious how things are.
there are a couple of moments in The Book, through the Gospels, that Jesus heals blind men and almost everytime they knew exactly what they wanted… almost. Not a blind from birth. How could he? How could he really know something that was never there to be acknowledged, although… something was missing, something really important something that made him a WHOLE human.
good news: Jesus Knew it, and He still does.
this chapter where Jesus heals the born blind man* starts with a discussion of the “why” he was blind…
Jesus knew why. He still does.
and as the born blind I felt incomplete. I just didn’t quite know what it was…
and trusting Jesus everything that I was and letting Him do his way in my life, I was able to see what I was missing.
in Portuguese we have an amazing word: “SAUDADE”. and learning new languages I also learned that some words can’t be really translated into another language without losing significant part of it’s meaning.
“Saudade” puts in one word the feeling of an inner gap. is the “I miss you so…” feeling, and more, in one word. maybe there is a word for that in English but I’m still searching and pretty confident that I won’t find it… due the uniqueness of the term… not even spanish or other latin languages have such a word.
How can you miss this much something that you never knew? How can you feel “saudade” over something that never was?
I love diversity. more specifically… I love Cross-cultural environments, but MORE then that I love this other country… that was never my home, not even close to it, but once I was there…
something clicked to that inner gap. “CLICK”.
that place, those people, language, food… were missing inside me… then I can safely say that I was missing it. I just didn’t know it ‘till it was there, right before my eyes, everything that would make me a whole human being.
But JESUS knew, and acted on it.
just like with the blind man.
now I’m here. and the gap hurts again.
difference is: Now I know what’s missing and who will fill it in me.
P.S. This one is dedicated to my very loved friends/families in Norway. I feel “saudade” and I’ll be back.
* John 9.